• When you’re nice…

    by  • March 5, 2015 • * Safe for Work *, Lost Love • 10 Comments

    Whenever you’re nice i feel guilty for hurting you, I feel guilty for wrtting against you, I feel guilty that I argued with you, I feel guilty for swearing, I feel guilty for all the wrong, I feel guilty for not doing enough, I feel guilty for not listening sometimes, I feel guilty for everything…

    But my love for you gets
    stronger & stronger
    Deeper & deeper and then I want you more

    It wipes all the bad the thoughts I had & brings back all the good

    I love you…

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    10 Responses to When you’re nice…

    1. Me Too
      March 5, 2015 at 12:38 pm

      You & me both. Though I no longer feel guilty & You the Author whoever you are shouldn’t either. Learn from your mistakes & promise yourself to never do it again & grow from it like I have. It’s some pf the greatest lessons/gifts we can receive even if we don’t think it as so. I always think now before I say anything…a filter you can say & if you’ve nothing good to say then say nothing. Take care. Smile?

    2. when you're nice...
      March 5, 2015 at 12:53 pm

      Mood swings depending on a fleeting perception. Sorry, but this sounds so superficial…

    3. :/
      March 8, 2015 at 4:02 am

      :/

    4. @Me Too
      March 8, 2015 at 12:49 pm

      You’re saying it. That’s what happens. A filter, a wall… šŸ™

    5. @@Me Too
      March 12, 2015 at 4:38 am

      I said it as in I was once a typical(full blown) extrovert for they have no filters? Which can be quite disastrous & annoying to others for they speak instantaneous words they’ve spoken from their lips can’t ever be taken back. No matter what or why the reason. no excuses. I’ve learnt a lot from being in the middle spectrum of an extrovert & introvert(~60%-40%). I haven’t said another hurtful or judgemental word against anybody since & am proud of it.

    6. @Me Too
      March 12, 2015 at 6:34 pm

      Are you? Really? hmm, asking myself what I would prefer.Hearing everything without filter or only the nice things that are left. Everything. Still what i think. even if it hurts. Having experience with that btw and i would always always prefer to be told the truth – and it hurts.

    7. @@Me Too
      March 17, 2015 at 8:47 am

      What I’ve said hasn’t been written how I wish I could explain it. I would still say how I felt, what I wished to say, always the truth etc…I would say it in a way without losing my composure. In years gone past I couldn’t do this nor talk about a heated situation without getting anger & making it worse.

    8. @Me Too
      March 17, 2015 at 4:15 pm

      And now you think it is better to swallow your anger and keep your composure? The best recipe for a time bomb, if you ask me. Some time your gonna explode. Can’t you be open and honest without trying to control the situation?

    9. @@Me Too
      March 20, 2015 at 9:51 am

      I’m not conveying my thoughts/feelings correctly here by writing it. Especially in a condensed form for what I would wish to say to you. Simply, I don’t get to the point of being angry or exploding any more. I never became physical ever BTW,( as anger is a defended mechanism-though whatever I said was now worthless), being a masculine Man, a fit 100kg+, 6’2″, & a voice that could be used loudly. I had came to learn after seeking help for I didn’t want to keep making the same mistakes in my life, so one being a psychologist who thankfully helped me become who I am today. What hurt me/opened my eyes up the most to which I was beyond mortified with myself for it was revealed to me that it was a form of domestic violence! Emotional trauma/violence you could say. NEVER AGAIN! I swore on my recently departed fathers’ name. You would have seen this man crying & since that day I embarked on being a Real Man. Mediation & Yoga has been the biggest help for me. I went to many sessions with different professionals to ensure I was on the right path. So many things I do which are too numerous to list. Basically we only have one life & I do so much now & have enhanced every aspect in my life bar one.

      MY soul keeps being drawn back to this very site! Every so often, quite intently then back to the real world again. It mystifies me for I should know better. I’ve realised as humans we are all similar in a sense for so many of our stories could replicate someone else’s? Even down to initials/names. It has taught me to be more empathetic to anyone who’s life crosses mine & to actually intently listen & not interrupt them. That there was my biggest fault to this very day. I’m aware of it nowadays & on the occasion I do slip I immediately apologize for interrupting. I must go for I have so much to do before my flight in two days time. No rest for the wicked.

    10. @Me Too
      March 20, 2015 at 2:11 pm

      Ah, okay. Thanks for the long explanation. I think I got it now… Especially the interrupting thing is something I have to improve as well… Not that easy, but it helps to be aware of it.

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