• Memories of you

    by  • March 3, 2015 • * Safe for Work *, Heartbreak • 0 Comments

    5 years have passed since we last spoke but I can still year your voice in my head and smell your sweet scent on my skin. Although I can’t feel or see you anymore you are etched in my mind like a permanent fixture. I often wonder if it’s you or my youth that I miss. I still remember every single moment with you and they haunt me in my sleep and in my everyday tasks. Most days, I hate you for not keeping your promise to fight for us no matter what happens. But other times, I hate myself for allowing you to fight for so long when the reality was no one wanted us together. I was so selfish back then. But you have to know I loved you so much and I couldn’t let go. We were just so young. I like to believe our love was one of beauty. It was all worth every second. Now, my days are grey. Life passes by me like lightning. I want to reach out to you but so much has happened. I love him, I swear I do. Our love is safe. he’s so good and kind. He loves me more than I deserve. Because I don’t love him like I love you. But, I could I go back? How could I expect you to want me back? It’s insane for me to believe I even cross your mind. I have to stay away. It’s not fair for me to hold you back. But, always no that no matter where life takes you, no matter how old we grow, there is always someone who loves you with every beat of her heart. No matter how much it hurts, I’ll never stop loving you exactly the way I did 5 years ago

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