• All I’ve Ever Wanted To Say

    by  • March 3, 2015 • * Safe for Work *, To You • 1 Comment

    Your eyes really do drive me completely crazy. When I first met you I knew that there was something different about you. That was four years ago. It has felt like an eternity in my mind, being haunted with these overwhelming feelings I’ve had for you. Your personality has completely made your looks even more attractive the more I have gotten to know you. Everything I love about you is written on your face, on all of your actions and expressions and words. I’m so in love with it all. Every second of the day I’m thinking about you and it makes me so happy yet so depressed. I get so excited to see you and even if you only say hi to me that is more than enough to have me happy. Every word you say to me I analyze and replay it over and over again in my mind. I’ve gotten way more comfortable with you lately and I just want to be close with you, and soon I probably will. I’ve been taking so many risks just doing things I would normally be terrified of. But it’s time. Everything is impossible with us. I see all of these quotes on the Internet and social networks and whatever, all talking about being so sad about being someone’s second choice, etc. I’d do anything to be your second choice. Maybe I am a choice for you, but even if I was it couldn’t work the way my fantasies do. I remember you always treating me special and you still do. But what’s sad is I see new little girls coming in and meeting you for the first time and how you treat them. And that was me. That was enough to get me to fall completely in love with you, and I just watch this happening and wonder if this isn’t just me. If it’s your charisma and personality and your words that just are so attractive and leave everyone hanging on each breath you breathe. Every single time your skin touches mine I can’t even breathe. I love it. I love being close to you, and having your eyes look into mine. I have never and probably will not ever again feel this way about anyone, especially lasting four long years as it has. Every night I wish you were here in my bed with me. So we could stay up for hours; just talking. And then falling asleep and me being in your arms and I’d never have to wish for anything in my dreams ever again. I would wake up at 3 am like I do sometimes longing for you and just seeing you next to me. Maybe you’d kiss me. That would be a complete out of body experience. You’d have to catch me. Which so far you haven’t been interested in catching me. I see your name everywhere I go, my mind is made of you. It’s gravitating to my blood, echoing through my everything. I am becoming pure you. You who means the world to me. I always think about if you’d be sad if I died. And how I’d die for you in a heartbeat. I don’t think I’d even do that so easily for my family. I’m fighting for you. I love you. Even if you never love me in the way I love you, just you being in my life and being in your presence is such a huge privilege, you have no idea. And day by day, I’m becoming overwhelmed by you. Soon I’m just going to collapse underneath you. You will destroy me.

    One Response to All I’ve Ever Wanted To Say

    1. The man in black
      March 3, 2015 at 6:19 am

      Sounds mutual to me;) Maybe one day you should tell Mr. Charisma how you feel…….my guess is he feels the same way, and you know what they say about unexpressed emotions;)

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