Remember the feeling you have right now. Keep this in mind when you feel the urge to contact or reach out. Call to mind that sick knot in your stomach, that tingling shot to to your spine and the throbbing pain you feel on your nape.
Remember this crippling fear that makes you doubt yourself and hate yourself. Call to mind how much he makes you feel like a stalker, making vain attempts only to be brushed off.
Picture himself laughing at enjoying himself knowing you are squirming right now.
You are not the abuser, you are the victim. Stop feeling guilty over something that was and never will be your fault!
Replace all the memories with new ones. Go out of the world and love, love again.
Not once did he loved you. he was never yours. You gave and never asked for anything and yet, this.
Honesty will always fall flat to a thief.
His pleasure is to see you, contact you only when he feels it. To hurt and continue to love one and the same person over and over and seeing no change happening is living an illusion.
I am not angry over you. I never will be. Thank you for finally setting me free.
I am moving slowly into indifference.