I know I hurt you, made you feel crap…
Yes I delibrately did that and was complete wrong of doing it.
I accept and I appologised.
Why I did it, I explained.. Yes it was the wrong way completely wrong and I hurt you.
It’s been months we have actually spent times together, do u think its easy? How hard it is..
The feeling, frustration, anger… What I did was wrong and that don’t mean I don’t love you. I love you, I want you, I need you that’s why I did not to distance you!
Yes again I say was wrong and backfired…
You know damn well how deep we are..
If I didnt care I wouldn’t be here or kept trying after mistakes after mistakes. My mistakes may hurt you but behind reason for it to make you undertand I love you but was wrong way of doing it..
I have always listened to you, accepted what you Disliked, never once said am not gonna I always said I will even tho I was far from how U want it.
I never denied of having people contacting me regarding the work I do, you knew from start, but when it was a issue I discreet myself from them. Some still do contact me but I don’t reply unless something genuine need to or it don’t get notice…
This is all tension we have it’s because we to close to each other, the unique feeling we have, how we talk & feel whilst we at home, also our situation Etc but if things was different where you & me was together nothing like that would be problem cause there wouldnt be any misunderstanding, everything how it’s needs to be would be.
All real, peaceful, fun, romance, happy, smile, love, loved just way it is when am with you, when your in my arms or by sight.
Who cares about other people, they not important, you were always no1 and still is..
I can feel you now and will feel when you read the letter…
I miss you so much I wish I could say that you and you can say what you want to say the good things…
It’s killing me & killing you