• Hurting still. Missing you so much.

    by  • February 20, 2015 • * Safe for Work *, Miss You • 2 Comments

    All those moments, we spent, looking into each others eyes,
    what seemed like small eternities…
    I miss you so much it hurts. I’m not blaming you,
    I very much blame myself. I messed up hugely,
    lost my mind and lost my self control.

    The fact there is such disconnect between us,
    such silence, I feel physically sick,
    mentally and spiritually deprived.
    I did it all to myself,
    I know. I’m trying to shake all this off,
    finding other women, there is nobody like you…

    I love you with every fiber of my being,
    I yearn to lay with you,
    hold you in my arms,
    and me in yours.

    I miss your voice so much.
    The way you laugh,
    all the stories you would tell,
    the time we spent together,
    just being in your presence,
    you were the sunshine in my life,
    my heart is in my throat these days,
    and the sun has not risen again.

    If you read this L,
    just know that I will always have open arms for you,
    always, I’m feeling so torn,
    trying to hold on to the past,
    while I feel myself drifting towards new women.
    Women I don’t want to be with,
    but I can’t hold them off forever.
    I long to contact you again,
    but for now this is all I can manage.

    I miss you so much.

    You are my world.

    Love you.

    – D

    2 Responses to Hurting still. Missing you so much.

    1. l
      February 24, 2015 at 7:55 pm

      D.
      I wish this was for me. This fits a situation in my life. But i doubt its really you.
      -L

    2. Darren
      February 25, 2015 at 11:05 pm

      Lisa? Is that you?

      It’s Darren.

      Please,
      if it really is you that replied to this,
      just reach out to me…

      I feel like an annoyance to you these days,
      which is why I’ve backed off,
      after all the drama last year.
      I still have sleepless nights,
      wondering if I should just text you “I miss you”,
      and I just picture you laughing when you get it.

      I need to know that I am worth something to you,
      so please, please just reach out to me.

      Pretend that you never saw this,
      whatever works,
      just… if you do wish this love letter was for you…

      It was for you… It is for you.

      I can’t stop thinking about you.

      If it ain’t you Lisa,
      well,
      whoever you are,
      I wish you the best in love,
      and hope you find happiness.

      Peace.

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