All those moments, we spent, looking into each others eyes,
what seemed like small eternities…
I miss you so much it hurts. I’m not blaming you,
I very much blame myself. I messed up hugely,
lost my mind and lost my self control.
The fact there is such disconnect between us,
such silence, I feel physically sick,
mentally and spiritually deprived.
I did it all to myself,
I know. I’m trying to shake all this off,
finding other women, there is nobody like you…
I love you with every fiber of my being,
I yearn to lay with you,
hold you in my arms,
and me in yours.
I miss your voice so much.
The way you laugh,
all the stories you would tell,
the time we spent together,
just being in your presence,
you were the sunshine in my life,
my heart is in my throat these days,
and the sun has not risen again.
If you read this L,
just know that I will always have open arms for you,
always, I’m feeling so torn,
trying to hold on to the past,
while I feel myself drifting towards new women.
Women I don’t want to be with,
but I can’t hold them off forever.
I long to contact you again,
but for now this is all I can manage.
I miss you so much.
You are my world.