I can go years without feeling a single thing but this one event just broke me. To hear that you at any point in your life felt that living wasn’t worth it is more than I can handle. We’ve spent time now and you seem happier but all I can think about is “What if the feelings come back? And what if you are bottling everything up?” You and I share this need to hide our sadness from those we love but not knowing if your new joy is real or not is killing me.
I want you to be better.
I want you to be happy.
I want to know that you will never have a dark day in your life again.
I love you too much to see that anguish you felt. You don’t realize what you mean to me and to all of those around you. Please, PLEASE have joy in your life and please talk to me.