Today has been a hard day.
The parting of ways is never easy, but sometimes when it’s a tear, a rip apart, a bloody break, it can be easier.
When it’s done with love, and you feel the heartache of the other, the quiet tears here and there, just because you know he will miss you.. it’s so fucking hard.
The weight of sorrow can be enough to stop you in your tracks. But you have to function. You have to prepare for the Exam next Wed, and another the week after.
You have to go to the job you despise so that you will have income.
You have to put on the brave face for all the people.
There are so many caring people, it makes me want to scream. I want to crawl into my help, and just tell them all to go away.
I have no energy left except to continue on.
My heart hurt’s so fucking much.
Today.. has been.. such a hard, hard exhausting day..