• Will I ever ?

    by  • February 17, 2015 • * Safe for Work *, To You • 2 Comments

    I don’t know where to begin.
    I’m constantly stuck between the idea that I have to move on or maybe I just can’t move on because in not supposed to because your gonna come back. I’m stuck between the reality of the situation and my hopeless believe that what we had was true love. You moved on and I said it was time to move on as well since there was no more to do. I had tried everything I had put my ego Aside my pride everything I just wanted you in my life again but you moved on. And now I see your happy with another girl and I’ve tried dating but in all honesty I feel like I’ll never be ready for a relationship again. Like I’ll never see someone as perfectly imperfect as yourself. I ask God every single night ” what do I do ?” I wonder if after a year since you left I haven’t been able to move on because we’re meant for each other. My heart plays tricks on my head that just make me wanna run back to you and try once again . But I remember you moved on and your haPPy and i realiZe the only thing I’ll do is hurt myself. I ask God every night to bring you back to me if you are for me and to take this empty achy sad feeling in my soul already if you are not the one for me. But it seems he doesn’t want to respond at least not right now. But I do have hope that all things will work out just how God had them planned. That’s the only thing that can bring my heart back to ease even for a little .

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    2 Responses to Will I ever ?

    1. M.
      February 17, 2015 at 2:38 pm

      Whatever you had you should work for it if it was true love.
      Don’t let it go easily, you have to work for it.


    2. R
      February 17, 2015 at 6:01 pm

      Surprisingly, a few months ago I was exactly where you are. The slightest things reminded me of him and so I prayed to God to either give him back or to give me the strength to move on. Reading your letter I saw myself. I’m here to tell you that if he or she isn’t the one to try and get you back, he or she is not worth it. It’s so fucking hard, I know. Right now it may feel like you just gave up someone who was meant to be but this may not be the case in the future. Some people move on faster. For me it’s been more than a year and I still think about him and what I’d do if he asked for me back. It’s clear that you tried, sometimes it’s best to let it go. I know my words don’t really mean much and you’re thinking “it’s different with him” I was there too. Give it time and eventually you’ll understand why I’m saying this. Many people just aren’t worth it



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