I am crying. And I am disgusting and I am so alone that if anyone knows a real thing about me I would be attacked again. I have no one to depend on. People who claim to be my friend aren’t really useful. They don’t make me laugh. I’ve never missed anyone in my life. I am an emotionless human. All I feel is pain at moments then nothing. I’ve never loved anyone. I’ve never felt a connection. Not even my mother nor my father. No one. I swear to you that there have been moments I have subconsciously Hurt myself and even when I noticed the wound I would not feel the pain enough to cringe. I am nothing I want to be thrown away. I want to have problems with me so people will turn my way. So they I could have one thing that I would be known for. I wish I had d.i.d so that I had an excuse for my shittyness. I wish I had something. Anything. …..