My heart hurts far more than metaphorically. I feel my heart in my throat. In distancing myself because you don’t see how much I love you. You think you can’t live without me and I know you can and will and that hurts not because I’m selfish but I’m jealous not of you but because of you in jealous if I die I can’t teach you the things I wanted from you. I can look at you anymore it hurts to leave you behind … In this cruel world. To my soul mate . We love each other like no other deep down we both know that. And yet to think we haven’t even touched yet. I can’t let go ever and that hurts alone even when we need to. We can’t because any other way it’s a win lose situation for us together hurts and us not hurts the same amount. I stopped making sense. Our connection is so deep that my head gets jealous.