I tell myself every damn day that I need to get over you and focus on my relationship, but I just can’t. Whatever our affair meant to you, it meant something to me. Being with you felt real, like the most natural thing in the world. I know you’re married now, but that doesn’t change how I feel about you, even though I tell myself constantly that you will never feel the same for me.
I love working for you and with you, but my feelings getting in the way makes it hard some days. But then again, you still give me ‘those looks’, touch my hand, joke with me… and flirting (I’m sure you’d probably just say you’re being ‘friendly’) — the same old things that made me fall for you in the first place — so it really all on me?
I think you LIKE the fact that I still want you, but you also like that I can’t have you. Does that even make sense? It doesn’t to me.