There are so many ways that you can look at the situation and use logic to draw all kinds of conclusions about why certain things may have happened over these crazy hard months. That’s exactly where I found my mistakes. Instead of trusting my heart and my feelings for you I tried to analyze everything that was going on whether or not I even understood it, and that along with being hurt caused me to completely screw up the way that I chose to handle everything. I was blinded by all of the facts I was trying to draw from the situation instead of the reality of it and the reality was that you loved me so much. Through this, what I’ve come to find is that you have to forget about logic. You have to rely on the way that you truly feel about a person. Everybody makes mistakes. But people also learn from them. People get hurt. But it’s the ones they love the most that can change everything for them. I am here to bring you out of this. I can change this forever and I would die to do it. I wish that I could have this knowledge months ago and take my own advice. You said you love me with all your heart. If that’s the case, please consider that in this decision. I know you’re confused, I know you’re hurt, but you love me and I love you more than anything in the world. And I will do everything and anything I can to make sure you never fall again. I promise you all of these things. I am 100% willing to be held accountable for everything I say. I will always rely on my love for you and our love for each other as long as I live. I will never feel this for anybody else. I am willing to give you all of me, everything I have. I will do anything you ask. I would be there tomorrow if that’s what you needed. This is out of my hands but I need you to know that I am completely head over heels uncontrollably crazy mad stupid in love with you and everything you are. You are everything that I have ever wanted and that I will ever want in a life partner. Yes, we’ve both acted differently during these months we weren’t together. We both started to feel like we haven’t seen the other person we used to know. I understand now that it’s because we weren’t together and we hated that. I get it now. I get it. I know who you are and I know that’s still you. We complement each other so well and we have passion in the same things and we want all the same things. And we both just want to love and be loved unconditionally. To have someone there to lean on when we need it. To have someone to listen and support. To have someone to cry to and cry with. To share every experience with, work through every problem with. Literally take on the world together as one. You are my one. You are my one true love.
Neither of us want to make the mistakes that either of our parents made and neither of us will. Neither of our lives will pan out that way. You will always look through that lens because that is what you know. And I have the same problem. I would never ever ever do that to you. EVER. If you let me commit to you, which I want to so badly, I am yours. For life. No looking back. Id never want to look back. I want a family with you. I want to raise my kids with you. I want to be an amazing mother to your children and I want you to be the amazing father they look up to and call their daddy. I want to go through every phase of life with you. I want to do it right and I want to do it with you. Every step of the way. I want to come home to you or you come home to me every night. I want to fall asleep next to you and wake up to you every night and every morning. I want to spend nights with you watching movies, drinking wine, going on gym dates, and going out. I want life with you. You’re incredible and there’s no one I would rather spend every waking moment with. Forever isn’t even enough and I’m about to lose you. These words couldn’t possibly come out of my mouth if I didn’t mean them. I sound like a super corny ending to a romantic comedy and I don’t care. It’s flowing out of me like water. And I’m going to tell you so you hear it. Whether or not you choose to believe it.
Why do I want you and only you forever? Because I love you with every part of me. You are an amazing person. We all have our flaws but I love you for every single one of them. You are the love of my life. I’ve never met someone that I fell for so hard and so quickly and so ridiculously in love with. I’ve never felt feelings even close to what I feel for you for anyone else. I thought I loved other people I’ve dated and if I did, it wasn’t real love like this. This is incredible, unmatchable, irreplaceable love. I want to spend my life with you. I want to be there for you and with you no matter what. I want to take on life with you. We love each other and we want the same things. We can have all of them. Together. There is nothing that will ever top that. You make me happier than anyone I’ve ever known.