You don’t understand.
I have been still pondering about us.
I am still “evaluating”.
I still don’t know what to do.
Truth is, I’ve never been good in making decisions.
I have always been so afraid of taking the wrong step that I always tend to delay or leave the decision making to someone else.
You don’t know.
You don’t know how much I feel like i’ve seen or known for the past year.
You forgetting little things about me, about us.
Your lack of concern.
You scare me.
I’m afraid it was a glimpse of what you will turn into when our relationship turns stale one day. When I am no longer interesting to you. When you get bored of me. When you can no longer be bothered with my wellbeing. When you get fedup of me.
I don’t know.
I’m not sure if this is just you being intentionally cold to me to maintain a distance, or… it is just you being you.
Will I ever know?
Will I ever feel wanted by you again?
Will I ever BE wanted and needed by you again?
I thought the intensity of your Love was profound, was deep, was strong.
But all these feelings I’ve been getting from you… makes me doubt you and your Love to me.
I’m sorry bunny. But I still Love you, so so so much.
Despite you continuously hurting me like this (i’ve been crying ever since just now) somehow, I still find strength to come back to you.