I don’t even know where to start. I’m 22 years old and Wednesday night I went to the local bar with a girlfriend and I thought I was spacing my few drinks out enough where I would be okay to drive. I didn’t feel drunk and I thought I would be fine. I wasn’t driving reckless or anything but I was pulled over for not using my blinker. They breathalyzed me and I blew a .09. It was the biggest mistake of my life.
I have always been a good girl and felt good about myself. But these past few days have been some of the worst I have ever had. And I haven’t told anyone so I have to keep it in. I had my boyfriend pick me up that night from the station but I told him a different story for why I was there. I have to pay an expensive ticket and all of the emotional stress that comes with this is just too overwhelming for me. I seriously don’t think I have even been this low in my life. All I want is something to take this pain away. I’m so ashamed and depressed, all I can think about is making it stop.
I didn’t know where else to turn. I’m always a happy girl with a smile on my face but now every time I smile, it’s forced. I constantly have to hold myself back from bursting into tears. I just want it to stop. But it won’t.