• guilt

    by  • February 5, 2015 • * Safe for Work *, Guilt • 3 Comments

    It means nothing when I hookup with them because I have zero attachment to them and zero attraction and sometimes literally never see their faces. It is purely a release. But I feel guilty because of needed the release in the first place. I hold you to an unrealistic standard. Same with myself. Sometimes I find myself not worthy of you. Why was I so deadset on that? It was the thrill. I am constantly seeking the high of the thrill and the manipulation. A sensation seeker. But I can still be myself without it. It will just take time and practice. I love you.

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    3 Responses to guilt

    1. @Author
      February 5, 2015 at 8:30 pm

      This is one of the most interesting letters thus far. In the end you said “I love you”. What do you think causes you to be a ” sensation seeker”? Do you feel you will always be the SS?


    2. Sam
      February 6, 2015 at 3:41 pm

      Interesting but also very sad. And potentially very hurtful if the one you love also loves you.


    3. ????
      February 7, 2015 at 1:04 pm




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