It’s been weeks since we’ve been together, and it’s not any easier to function. I can’t get you out of my head because I still want so badly to put the pieces back together and be with you despite all of the past. Instead, I feel nothing, and seeing you makes me feel empty- like you’re walking around with my all of my heart in your hands. It kills me that I don’t know what to do with myself. I continue to throw away any shot at feeling normal again and I don’t know how to stop. I hate you for letting me give up so much of myself because now I have nothing.