• Almost

    by  • February 4, 2015 • * Safe for Work *, Goodbye • 4 Comments

    I miss you. You were part of my life without either of us realizing it for such a long time. You were six years of crushing and silliness and imagined conversations. And then, suddenly, we were friends. And that felt amazing. You actually cared about me. You sent me silly, cute things to make me smile, and I held them close because they meant something to me. I was with someone at the time, but I kept those small things to brighten my life.
    You brighten my life.
    I never thought it would end over something so god-awfully stupid, but I’ve been proven to be other than an oracle for the ages. I didn’t need more than that, you caring for me, but when that stopped it hurt me so deeply I’m not sure I could express it to you. It threw me off balance.
    I try to remind myself that your favor was not always mine, that maybe it shouldn’t be so precious to me, but the effort goes wasted. I need to say goodbye to you and working so hard to please someone who no longer cares about me. I wish you all the best things in life, even if you don’t want me to be one of them.
    I love you.
    Take care.

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    4 Responses to Almost

    1. C?
      February 5, 2015 at 8:56 pm

      Is that you?


    2. SH?
      February 8, 2015 at 7:43 pm

      is that you asking for CR?


    3. Nope....
      February 9, 2015 at 3:58 pm

      Thought it was CW


    4. CKAR
      February 9, 2015 at 7:19 pm

      @Nope I’m sorry it wasn’t your person. It’s funny because it gave me some kind of hope for a minute to think my S might be looking for me, too. Thank you for that. And to author of “Almost” It so echos my own situation. A love of years, and needing to let it go, and be open for whatever comes, whoever comes. What I think I’ve learned from this exchange is that my person, my S, isn’t on here. I think he’s gone on without me, and it’s time I accepted it. I’m sorry for those who were left in such pain by their loved ones. From your words here, you seem like caring individuals. Best of, and better luck in love and life to you who write your hearts here. I appreciate the words of everyone who takes the time to put it in words. I think you are helping me to heal. May you heal, too. C



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