It’s been about 7 and a half years since everything started. It’s not something I think about every day. It’s not something that affects my daily life. When I think of you, I feel a bit of disgust. And concern. I was the best friend I could be to you. I know there were times when I would get wrapped up with a new boyfriend and neglect you a bit, but it was only because you were always so needy! I still talked to you every day. When I looked at you back then, I saw a person with so many flaws. You were greedy, selfish, insecure, and demanding. You acted asthough you thought you were a princess. But we had fun and you understood me. I loved you. Do you understand how much you broke me? Do you have any idea how many tears I’ve shed over you? Do you realize how much what you did to me impacted my life? To this day, I don’t know if you’ve ever told me the truth about it. Supposedly, you did…but how do you expect me to believe a single word you say? I don’t know if everything really was a lie or if there’s really someone out there that I cared for. I don’t understand how a person could do such a thing. If you really were going through tough times, why didn’t you just share them with me instead of creating some sick twisted game for yourself? I would’ve been there for you. I guess it’s partly my fault for caring so much and being so gullible. How was I supposed to face the fact that something even more horrible was happening? While I was stuck in a horror story, in reality, my character had almost died. Do you know how much I needed a friend all of these years? It’s still the most horrible thing that’s ever happened to me. I live every day thinking that I’m over it. But when I listen to one of those songs…my heart wants to jump out of my chest. It gives me anxiety. Although I’m saying all of these things, I have forgiven you. I’m not angry with you. But I don’t think I can ever trust you. Whether you’ve changed or not, it doesn’t make a difference because I’ll never stop thinking that you might just be putting on an act. If you find this some day, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to interrupt your life.