• the one letter I’ll never send

    by  • November 25, 2014 • * Safe for Work *, Breaking Up • 2 Comments

    Dear my anonymous soulmate,

    It’s been 7 months since we’ve last seen each other, and during these months I kept asking myself: was I a love easy to let go of? was I not that special? was ” you mean the world to me” just a lie? I’ve questioned everything. Could I be sleeping all this time and I’ll wake up soon? I ask myself millions of questions:
    How are you? are you okay now? do you miss me the way I miss you?
    Do you think about me the way I think about you?
    Oh and so many “if only”s have been discussed between me and my heart !
    And do you know how many times I wished I can turn back the time and freeze it on a happy moment with you!
    Do you know how much I’m struggling even after 7 months not to think of you ! not to miss you ! not to feel empty without you ! not to feel lonely !
    But that’s fine ! because I know I’m on my way to healing .. and whenever the thought of you crosses my mind I’ll just chase it away .. I won’t feed on your memories every night ! I won’t look for your face among the crowd ! I won’t try to find a voice that sounds like yours any more !

    from now on, I’ll stop thinking about you .. I’ll stop missing you .. And oh .. I wish I can say I’ll stop loving you but that would be a total lie !

    Goodbye dearest friend.. and if we ever meet again please be okay ..

    I love you ..

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    2 Responses to the one letter I’ll never send

    1. hollowman
      November 25, 2014 at 3:55 pm

      How weird it is seven months for me too, seven months since i told you i love you. But my “you” she rejected me soundly, i only told her because night and day were you on my mind, and i loved you so much and then after, i pretended i was over you. I wasn’t am not, never will be.
      I will love you for all time and unconditionally.

      @Author, is your him/her likely to care too? If you miss them well why not try if there is a chance, i do what you do, look out for her voice or face, hoping for a glimpse, though she said she never will speak to me again because i told her i love her. It obviously wasn’t for me and her to be no matter i would die for her, my emotion is half the equation, i need a full sum to make the correct calculation. But you, if a chance lives, don’t let it die.
      All the best whatever way.




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    2. Nat
      November 25, 2014 at 6:16 pm

      Same here. I could have written this same letter. I dont know how I will move on from this kind of love but knowing others go through it too makes it a little bit easier. Best wishes Author. Stay strong.




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