Dear my anonymous soulmate,
It’s been 7 months since we’ve last seen each other, and during these months I kept asking myself: was I a love easy to let go of? was I not that special? was ” you mean the world to me” just a lie? I’ve questioned everything. Could I be sleeping all this time and I’ll wake up soon? I ask myself millions of questions:
How are you? are you okay now? do you miss me the way I miss you?
Do you think about me the way I think about you?
Oh and so many “if only”s have been discussed between me and my heart !
And do you know how many times I wished I can turn back the time and freeze it on a happy moment with you!
Do you know how much I’m struggling even after 7 months not to think of you ! not to miss you ! not to feel empty without you ! not to feel lonely !
But that’s fine ! because I know I’m on my way to healing .. and whenever the thought of you crosses my mind I’ll just chase it away .. I won’t feed on your memories every night ! I won’t look for your face among the crowd ! I won’t try to find a voice that sounds like yours any more !
from now on, I’ll stop thinking about you .. I’ll stop missing you .. And oh .. I wish I can say I’ll stop loving you but that would be a total lie !
Goodbye dearest friend.. and if we ever meet again please be okay ..
I love you ..