• Help me get my feet back on the ground

    by  • November 24, 2014 • * Safe for Work *, Help • 5 Comments

    I’m in a really bad place. I know I am. I have a lot of emotional, personal issues. I have severe depression and it’s affecting me in every way. I’m rejected from everything, and career wise things aren’t going well. I’m unhappy. I want to die. I really do, but what I want more is to have a better life, and a part of me knows that no matter what I do or how hard I work it’s never going to happen. I just really don’t know what to do anymore.

    5 Responses to Help me get my feet back on the ground

    1. @Author
      November 24, 2014 at 4:47 pm

      Do you have someone to talk with?

    2. stranger
      November 24, 2014 at 4:49 pm

      Just by existing, you are beautiful to me, just the way you are.
      By working so hard, you set a stunning example, but, y’know, you don’t need to if you don’t want to… You could take a breath. We know you do your best. You do your best – I know you do. That’s gonna fit in in the world in ways you don’t see, yet. I love you and care about you no matter what you do. You’re so super harsh on yourself. I wish I could heal you, so you could feel weightless with me and my friends. It takes time, but you are welcome in my crowd and crowds like mine.
      You can do it.
      You are loved.
      You are important.
      You are accepted.
      I would do anything to make you feel all better.
      Lots of other people would, too.
      I’m holding my hands, praying to things greater than I can comprehend, hoping my luck and my love reaches you. I believe in you!

    3. @Author
      November 24, 2014 at 5:01 pm

      If I knew you, I hope you would come to me. If you have no one you feel you cant talk with someone you know, then you can talk to me. Although I don’t have a magic wand, I do have eyes to read your messages and I will listen to whatever you feel you need to get off your chest. I know there are numbers you can call listed on the site but maybe you don’t want that. You have made an important step towards getting relief by putting your thoughts down here. Now one more tiny step…letting it out. Talk talk talk if you can.

    4. hey
      November 24, 2014 at 5:14 pm

      I’ve suffered from depression off and on for 20 years. You know you need help and that’s a very good sign. It’s going to be up to you to seek professional help if you feel completely in despair. I understand feeling hopeless and it sucks to try to have patience while waiting for things to get better. If you don’t have insurance, county hospitals do offer low or no cost psychiatric help.

      Realize you are not alone and millions of people are going through depression too. This time of year especially. Sometimes the best things you can do for yourself are exactly what you feel you don’t have the motivation for – forcing yourself out of the house, or exercising, or interacting with others.

      In my most desperate times I’ve turned to TV series on Netflix or DVD, etc to get out of my own head. Breaking Bad, Lost, Shameless, etc. Anything is better than sitting there with that negative selftalk running over and over in your head. I’ve also called suicide help lines before and just talked it out until I exhausted myself/sick of whatever was making me sad.

      Keep trying. I know it’s hard. Do not give up! Take care of yourself please.

    5. @Author
      November 28, 2014 at 11:47 am

      Maybe thinking about how much you love your significant other can help get your brain chemistry back on track. Or maybe calling your mom or dad to say “I love you” could help? I’ve felt sad before when I felt disconnected with people I care about.
      Loving my friends and family (or sometimes having a crush on somebody) takes away my ability to sense deep emotional pain. I cope easier. The world looks brighter, smells sweeter, and feels warmer when I let myself love others (even if it seems uncool and even if it makes me feel stupid). It’s worth it, in the end. Good luck!

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