Hi. Its me. Hayley. You know me. You have known me for five years. I have always wanted to send this text, and right now I’m doing it. Look, this is going to sound crazy. Its crazy to me. It makes me look like a complete psycho and has ruined my mind and my life. I’ll never, ever be the same. Each day it breaks me down, crushes me into nothingness and oblivion made of sadness and darkness and emptiness and pain that only I could ever feel. The deep dark secret I have kept all of this time is plain and simple. I’m deeply, madly, in love with you. And that’s just the way it is. I know how wrong it is. And that’s why I’m broken. That’s why I’m not the person I was five years ago. That’s why I’m laying in bed with waves of you flooding over me. Wishing you were here to hold me in your arms. Just writing this breaks me beyond my capacity of pain. I see you all the time. We talk, and I have worked so hard these past years to get close to you, and I’m still working on it. Of course you don’t know I love you. No one knows. No one could guess because its out of context. Purely inappropriate. When I see you its like an out of body experience. Just the slight touch of your hand on my skin makes me feel like I just got electrocuted with a high voltage shock. But at the same time I’ve never felt more comfortable. When you say my name I love my name. Everything that you do is magic. Your words, the way they roll of your tongue makes it like the earths gravity and oxygen are just dancing together, as if everything is perfect in those moments. Because it is. When you dance its like the wind blowing ever so slightly over a field of those flowers that people blow on and make wishes on. Because you’re the only wish I’ve ever had. I love you, and its an eternal thing. Even beyond eternity, beyond infinity. And if nothing else, I want you to know, to know it with your heart and mind and soul, that no one has ever or will ever love you as much as I do today. As I did yesterday, and as I will fifty years from now. It never ends. It never will end. Infinity has met eternity, and that’s longer than forever. You are the most beautiful creature the earth has ever seen. You do not and will not ever care for me like I care for you, but that’s okay. Its completely okay. It wouldn’t make sense. The universe would be off balance. It couldn’t handle a love such as this. I can already hear it cracking from the unbalance of my love for you. It goes beyond any and all boundaries of nature. You are my soulmate. And someone’s soulmate can be one sided. You are mine, but I am not yours. That’s the way it is, and the way it needs to be.