• You can block everything, except emails appearantly.

    by  • November 11, 2014 • Letting Go • 0 Comments

    The last time we talked you told me I wasn’t what you wanted. That you had “found the one”. All those times you asked me to leave him, for you, and when I finally did, when I took that step… You rejected me. I never expected you to wait a lifetime. But fuck, I never expected you to break my heart either. I didn’t fight it though, I let you have your happiness, and when you told me that you were with the person you were going to marry, I let go. I asked you to never, EVER, speak to me again. Not because I hated you, but because I couldn’t support you the way you needed me to. And if I couldn’t be a positive influence in your life, then I didn’t need to be a part of it. And honestly, it’s the best decision I’ve ever made.

    I’m so fucking happy, now. Im happier than I’ve been in a very long time. And I guess I find it funny that after I asked you to never contact me again, to stop busting into my life and fucking everything up, after blocking you on facebook, on my phone, on any social networking possible, you fucking email me. You have the audacity to message me. After the move, after I get a house, after my birthday, after my pregnancy announcement, you decide to email me “I hope you’re doing well”. If you’re going to ruin a perfectly good end to a friendship, and burst back in, unwelcome, you owe me way fucking more than that.

    Bitch I’m doing just fiiiine without you. And I would appreciate it if when I asked you to stay out of my life, for good, you’d respect that. For once, just let me find happiness, and stop bringing all these unpleasant, unwelcome memories, back.

    I just don’t understand, I just don’t understand what made you think I would want to hear from you, or want your “wish you wells” bullshit. I don’t understand what would make ANY person think it’s okay to walk into someone’s life after being asked to leave. I don’t understand what would make anyone wake up and be like “yeah, I’m just going to email someone who obviously has me blocked on every fucking network there is because they totally want to hear from me”.

    But I don’t. If you can’t do anything else right in life, at least do this one thing.
    Just leave me alone.

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