Dear girls that I have seen and fallen for and loved in the deep recesses of my brain, I did love you and I did want to be with you. The key word there is DID I need to get you out of my mind I know I can’t be with you and I have to accept that now. I know that you don’t know how I feel about you and never will if I have anything to do with it. The important thing here is for you to be happy and with a great guy who is the right one for you. As I sit here writing this I think of things that never happened between us, yes I can make you laugh yes I have let you cry on my shoulder but I cant be that guy you run to when your boyfriend leaves you or hurts you. I have defended you and protected you yet there is no reward I get to watch as other guys get to kiss and hold and get your love while I feel like a hired goon quietly waiting for thier paycheck no more I am done it is not enough to be your heart guard I need more from you. I have broken my heart waiting for you M but not anymore, I am sorry to do this but I am too old to do this to my self any longer. I do love you and I will be close but I will no longer be at your becon call I have to move on. If you ever read this MAR I will not lie about it but please don’t try to restore what we were unless you want to love me as much as I have loved you all these years.