Can’t you just be honest with me? All I want is the truth. The only problem now is that you broke the trust I had in you… I’m giving you the chance to earn it back, but at this point I’m wondering if that will ever happen. You don’t talk to me!! How can you have a relationship with someone if you can’t communicate? I’m not sure how we are going to make it if we can’t even talk through things that need to be talked about. It almost seems as though you think after the two weeks of hell you put me through, we could just go back to normal. No questions asked. I can’t do that. Sure, we talked a little last night… and I slept with you… it was the first I had seen or really heard from you in two weeks!! But that doesn’t mean all is forgiven and forgotten. I understand why you did what you did. I would have been less hurt had you just been open with me about it in the first place instead of just pushing me away and ignoring me. You can’t just pretend the last couple months have meant absolutely nothing to you… right?? I know I can’t. I may have made a mistake in thinking we could work things out, that you actually care about me. Here I am, almost 2AM still waiting to find out if you are actually coming over like you said you would. Its like the cycle is starting all over again and its only day two at trying to fix “us”. I could be just overreacting, but after what you have already put me through, I know its always going to be in the back of my mind. At least until I can true you again. I hope one day I can. I hope that you can learn to talk to me. If you can’t, then I hope I have the strength to move on. I on’t deserve to be left in the dark wondering all the time. As much as I care about you… I’m sad to say I do start to wonder if we will make it.