• You wonder when I’ll stop hating you

    by  • November 4, 2014 • * Safe for Work *, Goodbye • 4 Comments

    You got it all wrong. You know me. I pull no punches. If I hated you I’d tell you.

    What I am is wiser.

    I made a choice to stop communicating with you and explained why before I left. That was more than you gave me the numerous (yes numerous) times you dropped out of my life without a word.

    Whatever is lacking in me to have been accepting of your hurtful actions is being addressed in my private life.

    I realize that just because we’ve known one another for years, it was silly to expect the level of trust and respect I gave to you. I gave that willingly and it was a mistake.

    The hurting side of me hopes you feel a hole in your life that could never be filled by another.

    The wiser side of me realizes it doesn’t matter anymore.

    There is no ill will. Just lessons I’m using to improve myself present and future.

    And silence.


    4 Responses to You wonder when I’ll stop hating you

    1. stranger
      November 4, 2014 at 4:23 pm

      Silence is really really loud.

      I think it says more than actual talking in certain instances.

    2. well....
      November 4, 2014 at 5:27 pm

      Silence really does hurt. Although you say you wish no I’ll will, but your silence may equal a scream to your person. Please consider giving them some closure. You obviously know that’s what he/she needs to go on and that’s precisely why you are denying that to them. I believe there us some I’ll will intended. At least be honest with yourself about that. And remember karma….I’m just trying to help

    3. author
      November 4, 2014 at 10:07 pm

      I guess some don’t really read the letters completely before commenting…

    4. C
      November 6, 2014 at 6:57 am

      It’s not selfish to disengage ones self from unhealthy relationships. I find it odd when people push themselves on others, making their life someone elses’ fault. Closure comes from within. You can selfishly keep someone chained to your life. Is that a fulfilling relationship? Would it feel good knowing the ONLY reason someone stays around is guilt?

      One phone call explaining why you’re not needed, or wanted any more is never enough, and it doesn’t make anything feel better.

      Author – Good luck on your journey. Stay strong, May you find the light at the end of the tunnel.

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