Dear my best friend,
I had never been in love with anyone until I fell in love with you and oh boy did I fall hard.
I have never felt such intense feelings for someone in my whole life don’t get me wrong I’ve had my fair share of crushes but this was different I knew as soon as I laid eyes on you that you were going to be the one to take my heart and do with it what you pleased I couldn’t help myself even if I tried you captured ny heart and soul right there in an instant.
I was under your spell for years to come even to this day I love u as much as I did when I fell in love with you if not more you make me smile and laugh on a daily basis even just talking to you makes me fall for you more and more.
It scares me really truly scares me how much I love you and I want you to know just how much I do love you but unfortunately for me that is not quite possible (for reasons which I won’t mention)
Now being in this situation is more than tough watching, standing on the side line while you watch the girl of your dreams and the one I cherish and love dearly, hurt knowing I cannot fully help her and give her what she deserves “happiness” even know I’m not the one or will ever be to provide for you,
I wish I could make u happy the days you cry in the shower or cry in the dark late at night in your room while no one hears your silent screams or take away all the things that are bothering you, the things that are running through your head you just can’t get out..
I wish I could take away all your pain all your hurt and sadness and just replace it with a smile, you always say I make u smile but I don’t think u understand I want to make you smile all the time even in your darkest days which I know you get often.
You are truly beautiful and no man or woman on this earth could ever make me feel the way you make me feel about you,
I can’t show u I love you as much as I want to because for me to love you isn’t something that is quite exceptable in this situation.. But just know deep down that I love you more than life it’s self without you in my life my life truly isn’t worth living.
You brighten up every day with just being you, being the kind and sweetheart girl you are the girl I fell in love with, who I will always be in love with for as long as I am still walking and breathing on this earth. This world wouldn’t be the same without you, I want to thank you for being the bestest friend any girl could ask for and I am sorry I am in love with my best friend you just made it and make it so easy to love you..
“I’ll move to the country, and live inside the deepest, darkest wood
And I’ll write you a letter and tell you all the things I should say to your face
And I won’t send it to you”
Forever and always
Your old shoe