Not for me, for you, well i think it is, i can’t without revealing too much, say what it was, but i am writing here, as i do every month at least once now, so that in a year, two years, ten years or 50, when i get the chance to tell you again how i love you, you can see if you want, that i did, i wasn’t just saying it.
Readers may wonder what i mean, well you know we ended our friendship, not by mutual choice, it was yours, after i told you once.
I made a decision then that has been good in some ways, bad in others.
The point is, i will be able one day maybe, i hope, to tell you again.
Of course you could and likely will be married or with someone, have forgotten me or not care in the least but you see i want you to know how wonderful you are.
The last bad news for you i heard upset me to think how you felt, if you were sad,angry,or depressed or whatever non positive emotion.
I wanted to be there to say, to hell with them all, you’re better than them.
Now, for whatever reasons, others are letting you down, turning away from you.
I don’t care for their reasons because like i said to you, always i am going to love you, that means never turning away from you or rejecting you.
I want to tell you face to face but i can’t, so the anonymity gifted provides the chance and one day maybe i will be able to prove it if you doubt the passing years did not diminish my love.
You are perfect, you are amazing.
Just that you are is a reason to be happy, not for you, but for everyone who knows you. They say one in a million, that doesn’t apply to you, there isn’t anyone like you in ten million or hundred million.
You deserve to be happy, i wish that you could have all your dreams come to life.
I should wish for you to love me, i should wish for a night with you, and i do, but if i had just one wish for real, i would wish you everything you ever needed and wanted to be wonderfully happy and the best life you could ever want.
I am selfish, i would like you to know i wished it for you, but other than that selfish bit, i would put you before me, because that is how it should be.
Well i hope you are more angry than upset, i hate to think of you tearful and me unable to wipe those tears away.
Never forget this, you are more beautiful than the sunrise over a spring meadow with the most brightly coloured birds singing and the sweetest scent of the flowers, there is no angel that compares, you are more than that, all that makes you is wonderful and amazing.
No matter what is between us, believe this, you are amazing, you are a good woman, please don’t be sad on account others don’t see it.
So please believe in yourself, you are my angel even if you don’t want to be. You are perfect even if others try to make you think you’re not.