• Vent

    by  • October 15, 2014 • Anger • 5 Comments

    I keep trying to figure out why you blow up like that ….. I’m guessing I should stop trying to figure it out at all. You seem really content with the idea that you are the only one with choice words; in your vocabulary.
    What I need to say is fuck you too. My fucking life was fine before you! Then you come along and do as you please say as you please you have the powers of the world, at your command. And what. I’m suppose to shake in my fucking boots oh so scared, go sit in a fucking corner and cry. You can’t even begin to imagine the urges and appetites I have now because, of you. Your argument is you wanted it, it’s okay we all have a dark side, I just gave you what you wanted & etc. One percent of that logic is true humans do yes we fucking do, have those things if we dare to venture. But I knew what and how an when I wanted it. You don’t get to make that fucking choice. So now…. I get to be labeled that bitch. that bitch that will not leave me the fuck alone. that bitch. whore. slut. bi polar. schizo …those labels existed but they were not and still aren’t mine. Tell me was I so fresh so green so seemingly gullible, that you dreamed. thought. imagined. That you could do whatever and just leave it all behind. Then have the goddamn audacity to bring the words out of your mouth, move on. I will say it clearly: when the goddamn sun burns out and every fucking mountain in the whole fucking universe vanish. then I will shut the fuck up. I believe I am feeling a bit better now.

    5 Responses to Vent

    1. I am sorry
      October 16, 2014 at 8:01 pm

      You sound very hurt and very angry. Maybe rightfully so but that is not for me to decide. I came to this site to say some things and apologies I could not bring myself to admit. And I did that. What I was not prepared for was the negative that some readers leave. Pretty much all of us here write as a way to close a door or a chapter and move on. But the few that are really nasty are what change the perspective of the site. I came to talk about love and hurt. Obviously you did as well. Don’t let others change how you feel. If you would like to talk about what has you upset I will listen and give you an honest, unbiased advice on how to move on. I decided not to get angry and argue back with complete strangers. Instead how can I help you get thru this time in your life? That is why we are all here 🙂

    2. Jason
      October 17, 2014 at 8:05 am

      Way to “Vent”. You sound like a hugely passionate person that got screwed over by some shallow ass wipe. You not only will find someone deserving of that passion, you will have it returned. Never lose your fire, I Love It…. If only…

    3. author
      October 19, 2014 at 6:22 pm

      @ I am sorry : there is nothing you can do to fix this . It’s something I fall asleep to and try to escape but it always finds me . sigh the worst part is when I finally contacted him he pretended to not even remember me. After all the harm he caused in my life. another thing is that he saw my hurt and he used it to his advantage. What was so fucked up is that no matter what he said or did , I could never see him as a horrible person. I have come to the conclusion that there are just some heartless people in the world.

      @ Jason : He is a gigantic shallow ass wipe …. that wasn’t passion that was rage and I never ever like being like that. It’s so far from who I really am.

    4. Sorry @author,
      October 28, 2014 at 9:03 pm

      Sorry it has taken me so long to send this. Crazy life ;). Unfortunately friend you are correct. The wonderful thing about this though is that you emerge victorious in the end. There will come a day, and you will forever remember the way that it felt the 1st time you realized you were over it. It is so freeing. When you can look back and smile. I will leave you with this: walk with your head high and smile, meet peoples gaze because you never know who is falling in love with you, be kind, forgive and apologize, accept and right your wrongs. You are a beautiful person.

      “Don’t cry because it’s over, smile because it happened.”

      ? Dr. Seuss

    5. Author
      October 30, 2014 at 11:53 pm

      I am sorry that I have to call what you said complete bullshit. One some days when a person think they are over it it comes back like a tsunami of thoughts. Two I can hold my head high. Three : People use love as a scapegoat at times. A person that loves another person a.) has no need to stand back and fall in love. although that’s logical. b.) a person that really loves a person never and I mean never, seeks out that person weakness to use for their advantage. c.) I’LL SAY THAT AGAIN love never takes advantage of another to be his or her plaything,then have a slip of consciousness and say oh well get over it and one day you will get over it. smile . Unless you have no conscience what so ever or you live in your own little world.

      I am a forgiver . I admit when I am wrong . I have no problems apologizing anymore. I know the difference between right and wrong. And thank you for the compliment ” you are a beautiful person.”

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