I wish I could tell you how happy I am to be leaving. It’s so exciting! I finally will get to be with my family again and the possibilities are endless! However, it’s bittersweet… because we’re saying goodbye. You know as well as I do that it has to be this way. For, even if I were not moving away, we would still need to part.
We’ve had some amazing times together! But lately, not so much. It’s nobody’s fault. We’re just not right for eachother. It took a long time for me to accept that because I love you. Even though we are not good for eachother and we bring out the worst in eachother… I love you. For the longest time, I kept telling myself as long as we loved eachother we could overcome ANYTHING. But sometimes love just isn’t enough.
So I sit here now, with you sitting across the room watching tv. And this is the only way I can tell you… that because each of us is about to embark on a new journey of rediscovering ourselves and reconnecting with family, I am so happy! Because each of us will be free of the pain we have caused eachother, I am SO happy! Because we love eachother, I’m SO HAPPY! However, because we are saying goodbye… I feel broken.