It’s late and I’m just lying in the darkness, listening to music and thinking of you.. I’m not supposed to love you, it’s wrong and unfair and a recipe for disaster, I know all of that.. And in the day I can convince myself really well that I don’t care for you, we’re just great friends who have a bit of fun together but there are times at night when I’m so lonely I’m sobbing into my pillow, when I lie awake and try not to wonder what you’re doing and when I admit to myself I miss you.. I want you to want me too, the way I want you.. I know I can’t do this to you and its really not fair at all and its not like you’re doing this on purpose, but when months go by without any contact, my heart aches for you.. I can’t ever say any of this to you but I really do love you.. Wish things didn’t have to be this way..