• Can’t give you up

    by  • July 27, 2014 • * Safe for Work *, To You • 2 Comments

    Last night I had a dream about you. It wasn’t sweet and lovely like my other dreams have been. It was honest and crushing. I was desperately trying to be what you wanted; trying to be a part of your life again. I wanted your tender affection. I wanted that look in your eyes, that embrace of your arms. I wanted everything to feel normal again. But nothing was.

    It’s been six months since we have spoken and I think about you everyday. Why can’t I give you up? Even when you are so bad for me. Why do I keep picking you up again, like an addict coming back for more? I need a solution. I can’t change you, but I want to make you like me because I think I’m worth liking. But I can’t get near you. The flame of your essence burns my nerves raw and leaves me boiling with fear and self hatred. Stay away!! Stay away, is the only thing my brain can scream out.

    2 Responses to Can’t give you up

    1. you're not alone
      July 27, 2014 at 9:45 pm

      Don’t worry. You’re not alone in this feeling. I am feeling the SAME way about my most recent breakup (last week) and I could not agree more with what you’re feeling. Like I’m pretty positive you read my journal and copy/pasted it. Stay occupied and don’t think too much. That’s the only thing that helps me.

    2. Why
      August 7, 2014 at 9:28 pm

      @Cant Give You Up – why do feel it is necessary for someone to like you? How will that change the outcome?

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