There have been so many times where I’ve wanted to write to you, but I didn’t even know where to start. I miss you. You are the first thing that I think about when I wake up in the morning. You are the last thing I think about before I go to bed. I want to apologize to you. I wore my heart on my sleeve too many times with others, and you tried to reach out to me to show me that you cared and I didn’t even take the time to really notice. You were always there to listen, to encourage, and to be there for me. I didn’t even notice at the time cause I was too carried away with others and leaving love with people where it didn’t belong.
I’m so sorry for hurting you. When I realized I cared for you it was too late and you left. There isn’t a day that goes by that I regret losing you. Yes, I want you to come back. Yes, I want things to work out. But you’re last words were that you were never coming back and that you would never write again. Now it just hurts to put one foot in front of the other and live when you’re not around. I had to take some time away for myself. I had to fix myself and I’m still in the process of doing that. Would you care to know that I need you now more than ever through this process? I miss you terribly.
Would you dare to know that I care for you and would do the same for you such as listening, encouraging, and being there for you as you’ve done for me? I know you’ve probably moved on with someone more beautiful than I could imagine. You deserve that you know to be happy. I just can’t help wishing that you would be happy with me. It’s too late. I know that now. That’s why I haven’t written, because I knew that it wouldn’t do any good to share my feelings about you cause you would be gone. But I needed to release my feelings anyway, because maybe somehow someday I will be able to truly let you go as you’ve done with me.
I meant what I said before you left. I remember the words I told you. I will always love you no matter where you are at or what you are doing. That is still true today.
Like the many people on this site who wished that their letter would be read by the one they loved, I hope and wish the same thing too. Maybe if you knew that I truly love you you would come back, but I highly doubt you’ll ever read this letter cause you’re gone.
The girl from Buttermilk Falls—AMW