You really have my feelings conflicting right now. Although I am usually good at reading other people’s emotions, I just can’t figure you out. You’re always so hot and cold towards me. One minute you are texting me nonstop, with us teasing each other back and forth, then the next minute it seems as if you can’t give me the time of day. You make me feel so used. I feel like you only talk to me when you have nothing else to do. But it’s you, so I’ll take what I can get from you. Me being me, I’m not use to pining after someone like this. It takes a special person for me to act the way I am acting right now, which is like a lovesick puppy. I really hate the way I feel but I can’t help it. I’ve tried and tried to stay away from you, but it was to no avail. All you had to do was say the word and I would come back, running most of the time. For example, there were many times I tried not contacting you to create some distance between us. I would say that almost always lasted only a week or so. As soon as I felt like I could breath again and it got easier and easier to not think about you, you break my resolve with just one text message. Yes, that’s all it ever took. I can’t ignore you when you are reaching out to me, no matter how much I wanted to. It’s you. And I love you. Sometimes I wonder why? We are totally polar opposites, I swear. I usually hate people who are selfish and self centered, and that’s exactly what you are. You are such a selfish person but I seem to have overlooked that because I freaking adore you. What I hate is all your little touches that have made me putty in your hands. Sometimes I wonder if you truly have feelings for me or you just want me around because you know that I would do anything for you. Why must you torture me this way? It’s like you push me away, but not far enough for me to escape, only to pull me right back into your clutches again. I feel like a toy that you like to play with. I guess this is some kind of sick game to you. But it’s a game that I don’t think I could ever win.