When I was young, about 3-12 I assumed I was going to be married with kids by the time I hit twenty. I was extremely uncomfortable with kids younger that me even back then(my older brother handled it every time we came into contact with) and I assumed that by now I would have gotten over whatever anxiety that is. I havn’t though and on top of the anxiety I at some stage pulled a complete 180 on wanting to have kids for other reasons(financial and feeling “trapped”). Finally I will also have to take full time care of my kid sister at some stage so i’m not sure how raising kids will work then. Sorry i’m rambling without any form of point or solution here, I just wanted to talk.