• I’m Not Okay

    by  • July 14, 2014 • * Safe for Work *, Wish • 3 Comments

    I’m sick of pretending like I can handle this. Like I am able to carry the weight of the world and I will be fine.

    I’m not strong enough.

    On the outside I have it all but inside I’m a mess. Disconnected aching hurting. I can’t pretend to be unbreakable when internally I’m falling apart every minute every hour.

    It hurts. It all hurts. Like a balloon that is slowly and painfully losing its air.

    Somebody else meet the challenge.

    I can’t pretend to be okay when I’m broken inside.

    Please someone recognize I’m imploding and help piece the destroyed me back together because I can’t do it on my own.

    3 Responses to I’m Not Okay

    1. HisConfederate
      July 14, 2014 at 6:27 pm

      I can only help if you talk to me about whats going on. I’m here when you need me.

    2. Missing her every day
      July 16, 2014 at 9:01 am

      I wish i could help, but all i can say is, i understand, i feel …….hollow, empty, desolate, grief stricken. And i hold one tenuous thread to not ending it all. I say tenuous it shouldn’t be but this feeling, this person i have lost out of my life has been like a cannon ball into me. And worst of all, had i never opened my mouth, i would have them in my life. A person may not be the cause of your pain, but i understand 1 million per cent what you feel. Just push day by day is all i can say. If i knew the way out i would shine a torch to show you. Good luck 😉

    3. my situation
      July 16, 2014 at 12:54 pm

      Very well written. Its difficult when everybody around you falls apart as soon as you start to break. When you need to be stronger, because they would only make it much more difficult for you, if they knew what’s going on inside of you. I know this too well. Try to find people you can talk to without being judged or critized and start with the things you can do to make yourself feel better. You won’t change it from one day to the next, but you will be able to change it, when you take your small steps day by day. You will get out of this. I’m fighting here too. You are not alone.

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