• I need to get something off of my chest…

    by  • July 8, 2014 • * Safe for Work *, To You • 2 Comments


    I don’t know how to tell you this, but I feel so bad about it. I feel so bad.

    Early on in the relationship I wasn’t completely faithful…
    I was intimate with someone that I had been intimate with before. Or I should say, he was intimate with me (foreplay stuff), because I didn’t really do anything to him…
    I know you had been telling me you loved me (from like, the week after we met). I know I did tell you that things like that take me more time, and eventually I told you that I love you, and I do.
    But I feel so bad for what happened.

    I never did it again. And I ended things with that guy – I told him that I had a man, and that he needed to stop asking to do things to me (things between him and I were never romantic. I never had feelings for him. It was strictly a fwb type thing – more benefit to me than him). I never saw him again, not even for plain ol’ platonic friendly meetings.

    But baby I feel so bad…
    I don’t know if I should tell you because
    a) I don’t know if it would really be that important to you (because it happened in the very beginning of the relationship, and I was still a bit unsure of some of the things I felt about you. Had I told you I loved you at that time and then did that – okay. But I made it clear that I needed more time before I said something like that – I needed to be absolutely sure that I loved you)
    b) I don’t know if you would or could forgive me or trust me again (even though I have never done it again, nor will ever see that man again). Especially since this is a long-distance relationship… It definitely won’t work without trust.
    c) I love you, I told you that I love you now, I told my family and friends that I love you, and all I can talk about is you. I love you and I’m in love with you… I would never and could never do that again.

    But baby I feel so bad…
    I feel so bad…

    If you ever read this,
    Please forgive me.

    I love you.

    2 Responses to I need to get something off of my chest…

    1. Snail
      July 8, 2014 at 5:53 pm

      Maybe you have nymphomaniacal tendencies. I fail to see how you can claim to be in love with someone and fuck another. Karma!!!!.

    2. Author
      July 9, 2014 at 5:54 pm

      For the record, I didn’t f*** anyone… Was intimate, but didn’t f***.

      And I did not say I loved anyone until I was sure.

      If you would have read my letter, you would have read that I told my boyfriend I loved him way after that. Not anytime before that.
      I didn’t claim to love anyone until after.

      But I didn’t write this letter to be judged, and I didn’t write it for you anyway.

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