I think I revisit what could have been because the decisions I made after walking away from you were so traumatic. Worse, I gave you and out and you took it. I hesitated and I was so full of pride that I gave you an out and you took it. I ran in to someone else’s arms because I could not handle your rejection. It really wrecked me. Did you reject me or was that your pride and not wanting to be patient with me? What if I decided differently, what if I had just said, yes and not given you an out. Or is it simpler, that my not talking to you was the catalyst for you to say what you admitted to me later – that you wish you had treated me better. So what does the road not taken look like for you? You seem truly happy in married life and devoted. I become so envious, and yet I wonder if it is a fantasy for me, it was not finished. Yet the friends we had in common then, are married now and I have to wonder, why not us.