• Inferior

    by  • May 28, 2014 • * Safe for Work *, Self-Esteem • 1 Comment

    It’s stupid, but I feel inferior to all my friends. I worked hard during college. I graduated with honors. I was in clubs. I worked. And I still had a social life. Once I graduated everything went to shit. My boyfriend broke up with me, my life plans changed, I was diagnosed with a disease I will have forever. And, the worst part…I can’t find a job, a real job.

    My friends are all successful. They all have relationships. They all have good jobs or are working toward graduate degrees. Meanwhile, I’m a grocery store florist. I should be okay with this. I want to be okay, and not jealous. But I am.

    They all invited me up to a weekend at the cabin. But I’m so tired of being the 3rd, 5th, 7th wheel! I just want what they have. Is that so terrible? I try. I look for jobs. I look at grad schools. I put myself out there. But it’s not working. And I feel like crap all the time. I feel like it makes me a terrible friend. Worse. I’m stuck. I still love my ex. And he wants nothing to do with me. I’m so lost.

    One Response to Inferior

    1. Hey
      May 29, 2014 at 11:02 am

      First of all. Stop comparing yourself to your friends. It does not help. We all have good times and we all have bad times. We just do not necessarily have the good times at the same time. Who knows, a few years later you will have achieved what you wanted while some of your friends start to struggle again. Life is not always easy. Try to see it as a challenge. You’re getting tested. It’s a hard time for you, but it’s a good time as well. You have the chance to improve yourself. Don’t give up. Do what you can with what you have and accept that it will take time. Take one small step and then the next small step. Don’t look back, don’t look too far ahead. Focus on your small steps. Some time in the future you will see that it was worth it. Good luck to you!

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