It’s stupid, but I feel inferior to all my friends. I worked hard during college. I graduated with honors. I was in clubs. I worked. And I still had a social life. Once I graduated everything went to shit. My boyfriend broke up with me, my life plans changed, I was diagnosed with a disease I will have forever. And, the worst part…I can’t find a job, a real job.
My friends are all successful. They all have relationships. They all have good jobs or are working toward graduate degrees. Meanwhile, I’m a grocery store florist. I should be okay with this. I want to be okay, and not jealous. But I am.
They all invited me up to a weekend at the cabin. But I’m so tired of being the 3rd, 5th, 7th wheel! I just want what they have. Is that so terrible? I try. I look for jobs. I look at grad schools. I put myself out there. But it’s not working. And I feel like crap all the time. I feel like it makes me a terrible friend. Worse. I’m stuck. I still love my ex. And he wants nothing to do with me. I’m so lost.