To the drizzle:
I love you very much but I think I need some time
It’s like this,
you do all the things a good boyfriend should do
But I guess I’m not looking for perfect
I think I like tumultuous
I like crazy and passionate and deep love
And I love you very much but I’m just not in love with you like I should be
And that makes me feel more empty than I felt when I was alone.
I know you’d be a good husband and father to our two kids while we live in some suburb of some Southern state
But that’s not what I want
I mean, I’m not sure what I want, but I know that’s not it.
I want adventures giving way to memories.
I don’t think you know that
I don’t think you know me
You can stare as long as you want at a person and that doesn’t make you know them.
Do you get that?
I am a tornado and I need an earthquake to match
And you’re just rain really
a quiet rain on a Sunday morning
when I want a torrential downpour
And I think I need to figure some things out
I need to figure myself out
and be alone for awhile
I haven’t been alone since I can’t remember when
And I think it would be really nice
I think that’s what would make me happy right now
To the downpour:
Where are you, true love?
I feel like I’ve been waiting forever.
And I keep filling the space that you are meant to belong in with other people
People that don’t fit,
and I guess I’m just sort of wondering where you are and what you’re doing right at this moment
And why you’re taking so fucking long
And if maybe you’re wondering about me too
And if you’re breaking other innocent hearts to get closer to me
Where I am
We need to pray harder
search longer, okay?
Because I wanna know you
All of you
Every shake of you
I wanna meet you in some ridiculous place
And have some ridiculous conversation
Where you ask my favorite colors
And know that I am strong when I say red
Where I sweep you off your feet like the tornado I am
And we remember that moment when we’re old
Weak disasters now holding hands
Because someone has to thank God for the storms
While other thank him for the rainbows