• REALLY? Fuck!!…let me sleep.

    by  • May 15, 2014 • Knock it Off • 5 Comments

    WHY won’t you leave my subconscious? WHY? It’s been so fucking long and still, you invade my dreams. It’s been a LONG time since I’ve seen you in real life. Will the universe please make your memory leave my head, PLEASE?! I’m beggin. I woke up sad all over again. I hit snooze 4 times to continue the dream, to see you. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME??
    Then all day…my mind drifted to you. All motherfucking day!! Why? I was MISERABLE when you were in my life. It doesn’t make any damn sense at all. Nadda, zilch, none, zero…NO SENSE.

    5 Responses to REALLY? Fuck!!…let me sleep.

      May 15, 2014 at 11:20 pm

      The devil programmed your mind. I know that. Hang in there.

    2. Simple
      May 16, 2014 at 7:40 am

      You dealing with a soul tie there are good soul ties and evil soul ties . Nobody’s life is supposed to be overwhelm or consumed by thoughts of another person . There is something in you that is causing the hold . Or the person is still holding on to something in them concerning you . You can easily be released by praying or if it takes confronting the person , you have something to say , do you love me or do u hate me etc. either way it is definitely something going on. Hope you find your solution .

    3. toxic
      May 16, 2014 at 1:14 pm

      The solution could be a rope and wax.


    4. Bipolar perhaps?
      May 16, 2014 at 4:21 pm

      Sometimes it is a love obsession caused by Bipolar Disorder. I almost let it wreck my life because he was all I could think of despite the fact that he had so obviously moved on. I had ceased to have a life, no friends, no job, no social life, but focussed all my energies on obsessing about him( and his new love) or wondering desperately how to get him back. I also became a masturbater and a porn addict, amongst many other problems that plagued me.

    5. Author
      May 17, 2014 at 8:46 am

      @anewlife- no, the devil hasn’t programmed my mind.
      @ simple- could be although I’ve nothing left unsaid. I pray all the time though.
      @ toxic- I don’t understand what you mean or the video but It was mesmerizing
      @ bipolar- not an obsession and not bipolar. It only happens once in awhile and most days I don’t think of him. I’m a functioning adult, very active in life and social.

      Just annoys me that the hurt still lingers whoever he enters my dreams. I just want the dreaming to stop because the reality of what we were was far from a romanticized dream.

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