Everyday people judge others. They judge the ones the love the most the most. It truly is a cruel world. I never thought I would think of you in such a negative way. You’ve hurt me. Bad. The things you have done, not done, said, not said. I have always been honest with you, and I feel you continue to hold back the truth. I am sorry I am not who you want me to be. I cannot grant your every command. I have tried for so long to understand you and I have overanalyzed every word and action that I have made over the years. When I think of it though, I love you for you, the good, the bad, the everything. Sometimes I wonder if that is the lesson to be learned here. We can never be together because YOU do not accept ME as I am, for who I am. I don’t believe there would be a perfect time for a relationship to begin. You say you need time, need to get your crap together. I never cared about that. Like I said, I love you regardless. I want to help you be a better you, and you me. You wont let me do that. You’re resistant. Why? You push me away after you let me in. You do it again. And again. And again. It isn’t fair. I am not the horrible person you make me out to be. You create this monster as a defense. Do you see that? I have never done anything that would excuse your behavior. Yet, I apologize anyway. I know you’re sensitive and stubborn. You want to get your crap together, no? Then start here. Stop lying to yourself about this. Don’t push me away forever. I am in love with you, but I will not keep compromising my sanity and good spirits for much longer. We made significant progress recently, please, do not end things like this. This is not the way our story ends. It just cant be.