I have to learn to forgive myself and learn from this. Loved people that I shouldn’t have allowed myself to have feelings for and realized now that it was wrong. I didn’t even know or love myself how could I really love those people? Someday even though I’m not worthy I would like to fall in love with one person alone and be committed to them for the rest of my life. That is what I’d like to happen, but definitely I don’t feel like I would deserve something so beautiful. Why? I’ve made so many mistakes with so many different people I don’t feel worthy. I have a past. I’ve learned that I need to control my feelings and not let my emotions run away with me. I’m still learning from that and it’s not easy.