• Am I not supposed to be?

    by  • May 12, 2014 • * Safe for Work *, To You • 0 Comments

    Am I not supposed to be terrified of you leaving? Am I not supposed to be uneasy about the fact that you’re graduating and thinking about moving over 1,500 miles away while I’m stuck here, still in school? Am I not supposed to worry about whether you’ll meet someone there that’s better than me? Am I not supposed to worry about whether or not I’ll get to see you again? Am I not supposed to be upset about the fact that for the past year and 3 months, you’ve been the one constant I have and now you’re talking about moving so far away that I’ll only be able to see you MAYBE once or twice a year? Am I not supposed to feel any of this? Because I do. I feel scared. I feel hurt. I feel confused and abandoned. I’m so scared I’m going to lose you. You don’t understand just how scary this is to me.. I’ve spent my entire life avoiding getting close to people because they leave and say they’ll keep in touch and be sure to come back and visit but never do or they hurt me after I’ve given them everything I have to offer. I’m so scared that’s going to happen to us. I can’t lose you. You’re the first person I’ve ever felt this way about. You’re everything to me. You’re my constant. You make me see the world in a better view. I don’t want that to go away. I don’t want you to go away. I want to stay wrapped up in the safety of you forever and I’m scared that if you leave, I’ll never get that opportunity…

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