I just don’t feel like I belong. Everyone around me just somehow irritates me and I can’t help but blame myself. I did wrong and even though I didn’t feel like it was wrong, it was according to you and your family. I can’t handle being around them without feeling left out. Dont fucking tell me I’m apart of the family, and then shove it in my face that I’m not. I’m sorry that my family and I aren’t as great as I’d like to be, but that doesn’t mean that you have to keep shoving down my throat “family first.” I definitely agree, but I consider you guys my family too. I just-I’m so hurt right now. I feel like you all are so two faced. Don’t be nice to me, then talk shit. Don’t be nice to me, then not include me in anything. It’s fucking bullshit. But you know what? It’s my fault.. I did him wrong and that’s what you all are holding against me. To the rest of the world, it wasn’t wrong. But for you guys, you just wanted to get fully involved and submerged yourself within my argument with HIM. WE were arguing. Not me, him, and you all. I don’t understand why you are so over involved in each others fights. Some things deserve privacy. Most things are very sacred as well. What, do you want to know about our sex life too? Didn’t think so. Just give us privacy just as much as you want your privacy. These double standards irritate the shit out of me and just makes me want to cry.