• 16 Responses to i’m a fool

    1. Well then
      May 8, 2014 at 4:33 am

      Now that you “know” this, what are you going to do?

    2. tricia
      May 8, 2014 at 11:13 am

      not think anything could happen between him and i.

    3. itmindset
      May 9, 2014 at 2:52 am

      “Don’t think about a purple elephant.. What are you thinking about?”

    4. tricia
      May 9, 2014 at 1:54 pm

      im thinking that he’s taken and i was stupid to think i ever had a chance with him.

    5. no tricia
      May 9, 2014 at 11:35 pm

      You are not stupid. You have feelings and had faith. You were strong enough to admit what you felt. You should be proud of it. Don’t make the mistake to invalidate yourself. Don’t let the outcome define your self worth. It is no proof that you were wrong! It’s not your fault that your person does not act on it.

    6. tricia
      May 11, 2014 at 6:31 am

      Now all i can think about is, what the heck is a purple elephant meant to mean?? I’ve Googled, asked.com, bing… im not sure what it means other than it doesn’t exist

    7. tricia
      May 11, 2014 at 11:35 am

      @no tricia
      thank you. its one of those situations where you love someone (that one person you truly feel alive inside with even though your hearts broken) but can’t be with them. i don’t know.. i guess i thought maybe he felt something, i try putting pieces of a puzzle together to make a clear picture but can’t seem to find them. id give anything to be with him. as corny as that sounds. 🙂

    8. Gemini
      May 11, 2014 at 10:22 pm

      If it’s what I’m thinking of, it’s what you sometimes see when you’re drunk. It can’t be denied or confirmed as it’s always relayed from somebody’s friend’s friend or relative.

      It derives from the movie Dumbo, in which there is a scene that Dumbo accidentally gets drunk and sees purple elephants: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-wR8FL_2gwI

      This just surmising, though. I didn’t make the original reference.

    9. same boat
      May 12, 2014 at 3:15 am

      Lol. It was just a metaphor for what happens when you actively try to NOT think about something…

    10. no tricia
      May 12, 2014 at 5:26 am

      I understand you. I’m in a similar situation. They are stuck in my subconscious mind and I don’t believe that I will get them out of there ever – at least as long as I don’t get something like Alzheimer’s or Dementia. We will have to live with it…

    11. tricia
      May 12, 2014 at 12:26 pm

      @ no tricia, yeah, i get that. everyday constantly he runs through my mind. ill never forget about him. he’s left a mark on me that will forever be ingrained in my heart. i just wish that memory would be a reality however, i don’t believe it ever will be. i wonder if i left that same impression on his heart as well.. so many questions.. :/

    12. no tricia
      May 13, 2014 at 11:05 pm

      In my experience it is healthier to assume that it’s only you. It doesn’t matter if it’s true. As long as they are not with you it does not help to assume otherwise. It can drive you crazy and you will have a even harder time to ignore that you want much more.

    13. tricia
      May 14, 2014 at 6:28 am

      also, i don’t want to live having him as just a memory or a , “wish we could be.” the pain of wanting him so bad and unable to relieve that pain makes it that much more painful.

    14. tricia
      May 14, 2014 at 12:06 pm

      it matters when you’re in love. eventually ill let him go.

    15. @Tricia
      May 14, 2014 at 10:12 pm

      I’ve been visiting this site off and on for the last 6 months or so and don’t post very often, but when I do, your comments are often very welcome and helpful. Sometimes I search the archives and I’ve observed that you’ve been in pain for a while. I wish I could help you somehow, such as telling this guy that he would have someone who loves and cares for him deeply in you. Or at least I hpoe that someone else comes along who sweeps you off your feet. I’m here more to say things that I really can’t say to my person in the real world, as opposed to dealing with the pangs of love, but I understand what you are feeling and hope you find some relief.

      Hang in there, kid.

    16. tricia
      May 15, 2014 at 6:19 am

      Thank you. yeah its been nearly two years. its finding that acceptance to let go because nothing will ever come from this.. at least applying logic towards the situation.
      and thank you for your comment. i try to be positive when giving my comments because of the empathy i have for those hurting too.
      I’ve dealt with the pain of heartache now i need to find solace in letting go.

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