• What is this “moving on” thing and how do you do it?

    by  • May 1, 2014 • * Safe for Work *, Moving On • 1 Comment

    Dear young man,
    See, I categorized this under “moving on”, because that’s what I’ve been trying my hardest to do. But what about everything else I’m feeling?
    “Yearnings”? “Heartbreak”?
    Because I feel all of those, and more. I think it’s wildly unfair for you to tell me the things you did. When you tell me how sweet I am, and how pretty, and talk to me every hour of every day for five months, you can’t leave like you did. You don’t know how long I sat there waiting for you. I’ll tell you, it was a hell of a long time. Thanks a heap for not even hinting that you might choose to ignore me, but this sudden, vast loneliness stings even worse than your abandonment.
    To be honest, it’s not okay for you to chat with me when our paths cross. Every. Day. It’s up to you, because I don’t have the self-control to do what I should and walk past you standing there.
    While I’m being honest, I’m more than pissed off that our communications seem to have never existed to anyone else. Did you ever mention me to your friends? I mentioned you to mine. I told myself not to. “You’ve been here before”, I told myself. After I think its safe to mention your name, it all falls apart. When my friends ask, “What about that guy?”, what do I say?
    I don’t know. I don’t know anything about what happened. It was all you. You had no idea how tightly I was wound around your finger. So tight I lost myself and my independence.
    So, after this long ass letter composed of my confused venting, I’d like to say one thing.
    Fuck you.
    At least, that’s what I’d like to say. But I can’t even do that. As many times as I try to move on, try to recover, try to get a hold on myself and not be dependent on anybody, I can’t. That’s something you took from me, and it hurts too much to gt near you to ask for it back.
    It was not real love,
    A young girl

    One Response to What is this “moving on” thing and how do you do it?

    1. J
      May 1, 2014 at 12:38 am

      I guess choices were made here I can relate to this but I was the one who left I told no one about my conversations with my person cause I was scared of what the feelings ment I miss them every day but a man has to man up do the right thing protect what is his at all cost. If love was a part of your story contact is the best option closure is needed and life goes it. Shit happens it’s how you deal with it that makes you who you are.

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