• It just isn’t the same

    by  • April 30, 2014 • * Safe for Work *, Breaking Up • 0 Comments

    I don’t even know where to start. I guess diving right in is the best way. I’m not good with words, I never have been, so the only way I know how to start is that I do love you, but I don’t think I am in love with you anymore. This is honestly one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do. I don’t want to break your heart, but I know it is unavoidable at this point. You are honestly one of the best guys I know and to have to do this to you is hard but it’s better than pretending I still feel the same way.
    I can’t even tell you what happened. It was so sudden, I feel like I just woke up a few weeks ago feeling different. I looked at you and didn’t feel that feeling anymore. I didn’t feel like I was lighting up inside, I didn’t feel the warmth I used to get, I was empty. It isn’t your fault, it isn’t anyone’s fault, really. This happens, people fall out of love. I never thought I would be the one to stop loving you, or this soon, maybe ten years down the line, but not now. I just want to emphasize the point that it wasn’t you though. You have been perfect to me. Something just changed. I know that sounds like a terrible reason but something changed, I’m not happy anymore.
    I want to say I’m sorry, but apologizing isn’t going to make this situation any better for either of us. It won’t make this hurt less or having this conversation in person easier. I feel terrible knowing that in a few hours I am going to pick you up from work for the last time and that car ride is going to be one of the worst we have ever been on. I just don’t know what to do, I can’t keep pretending to be happy.

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