Cj I often think of u with fondness now while I know we will never be I’m happy with the memories.they are my comfort when I am down and often in my dreams I see your face from time to time. I hope when the wind catches your face on a cold day your reminded of the good times and you smile. To know that would make my day. You see I’m sorry but I’d not change a thing everything happens for a reason even hurt, and even though it was a short time it still was a time I’ll never forget. I just hope one day you are able to feel peace as none of the pain matters no more. I do miss you seeing you use to make all the hurt in my life float away to know true peace is a wonderful feeling and you gave me that. So smile and laugh know that I never meant to hurt you I did once love you and now I am at peace. Thank you for showing me just how wonderful and loving this world is. For u cj. For all the what ifs you will always be my what if.