I have been waiting for this to happen for a veryyy long time. I wish I could remember every little detail but the memories have already faded, leaving me here yearning for more. We finally allowed ourselves to be close against our better judgements. Well, maybe yours. I know it upsets you that I am not more verbal. In your presence it becomes more difficult. I am afraid to say more because I am afraid you will hurt me, again. Yes believe it, you have hurt me too. I am sure you would blame this on me, and I do take some responsibility. However, your words are contradictory from your actions at times and have confused me since day one. Of course I love you and want to be with YOU. This has been known to me for a long time as it has to you. What we both seem to question is how you feel. Although I am almost sure, I have no confirmation from you, just more mixed signals. My thoughts about how you feel are just opinions/delusions until you tell me otherwise. I wish you could be honest with yourself and me. Please stop letting your fear get the best of you. If you thought that was an amazing night too, imagine what our future would hold.